-My~Little~World-

The Return.

2009-12-19T16:16:00.001+08:00

After so long since i last posted anything, i'm finally back. So here is something i made for you and just for you.

Love is the greatest feeling,
Love is like a play,
Love is what I feel for you,
Each and every day,
Love is like a smile,
Love is like a song,
Love is a great emotion,
That keeps us going strong,
I love you with my heart,
My body and my soul,
I love the way I keep loving,
Like a love I can't control,
So remember when your eyes meet mine,
I love you with all my heart,
And I have poured my entire soul into you,
Right from the very start.

2009-06-14T19:47:00.001+08:00

Forever takes me by a minute,
While I'm here with you.
I'm falling even more in love,
With everything you do.
Hold me in your arms,
Look deep into my eyes,
Don't turn away and let me go,
Don't ever tell me lies.
I swear I'll never let you go,
I'll always hold On Tight
I'll carry On Day And Night

There aren't enough hours,
In each passing day,
To find all the words,
I wish I could say.
My kiss will last forever,
My touch forever warm.
I'll guide you to the sunlight,
And shield you from the storm.
This is what I'm saying,
With everything that's true,
I swear on my life,
That I really do love you...

2009-05-25T19:35:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not blogging for the past few weeks...

After my paintball tournament (SPNS 09 Leg 2) I was down.. I wasn't feeling well from the every start of the tournament but as my team didn't really have enuff ppl, i just have to force myself to play in the games even tho i got a few game rest it didn't really help.

I felt so bad as my team came in 4th over 13 teams this time.. I felt that it was my fault as we did really really well in the normal rounds and quarter final rounds, until that we started to give way in our semi final rounds... Coz i just couldn't take it anymore.. At one point of time i even felt like i wanted to faint and that was when one of the ppl (KIKO) incharge notice that i'm breathing very hard b4 i went into the game..

After the semi final and we lost and only came in 4th, i cried in my mask while walking back into the team holding area.. It's my fault..

I just want to say, sorry guys, we could had 1st or even 2nd in Leg2.. But i just can't go on anymore.. I really hope that you guys will understand.. I really gave in all my best...

Here is the video taken and was edited by GRANT.
Games and plays are out of sequence to make the video more interesting.

I took cab back with eugene and when we reached, i told gene that i feel like vomiting and that's when i went down...

For about 2 weeks i didn't turn up for work as i kept having high fever and my throat hurts like hell, couldn't sleep well at night, high body temp and sore throat.. After i few visit to my GP, he finally refer me to TTSH A&E for further diagnosis and i'm diagnosed with Tonsillitis.. It's some kind of viral infection to my tonsils which keep making me having high fever...

Days went by like going thru hell for me with fever going up and down.. If it wasn't my bunniyiee staying by my side and taking care of me... I think i'd rather die...

Dear.. I just really wanna take this chance to thank you. For spending all your time and effect on taking care of me.. I know you've put in alot into taking care of me.. Sorry that i gave you so much trouble as i keep falling ill and stuff... Thank you for always being here for me when i needed you the most. Thank you and sorry that you have to crack your head just to think of what food to get for me...

I couldn't think of a life without you.. I love you dear. And you'll always be my bunniyiee!

The way you breath makes me calm
The way you speak makes me warm
The way you see right through me
You make me the man that I want to be

The way you hold me, I could never feel cold
The way you are, how my heart got sold
The way your nose moves when you speak
The way your eyes looks at me makes me weak

The way you smell, your perfume
It is like to be in Heaven, I assume
The way you taste, better than any chocolate
The way we fit together, it must be fate

The way you kiss me like I want to be kissed
All our moments that forever will be missed
Your humour makes me smile my happiest smile
The way we go together as well as our style

The way your pure white colour meets my solarium skin
The way we both fight for our love to win
Your honesty makes me believe in everything you say
The way you drive your car when we are on our way

The way you smile makes me want to kiss you
The way I am when I am with you, I could never be blue
The way you stole my heart and kept it
The way we belong to each other, we fit

The way I will miss you until the next time we meet
The way we are perfect, together we are complete

All these things I love about you
But most the way you love me too
'I love you' is all I want you to say
We are perfect in every way
Except for the way we say 'goodbye'
That word is not meant for us, I feel like I could die
But heck! We are meant to be, made for each other
We will be together now and forever!!

2009-05-02T00:47:00.005+08:00

Today my mom is going away for holiday, bunniyiee took all the trouble to drove my mom, aunt and i to the airport to send sent em off..

Mom just couldn't put her heart to rest and keep asking me to take care of the house, bro, dog , etc.. After seeing her and my aunts, uncle, cousin&wife walk into the departure hall bunniyiee and i walked back out to the car park and after we drove off, my mom called me again and told me the S.O.T. again!! Lolx! You might be wondering what S.O.T. mean right!? Well, it's for bunniyie/me to know and you to find out!! Lolx! Just go enjoy yourself ok!?!? Don't WOOORRRYYYY SOOoo Much!!!

So the 2 of us went to Upper Seletar Reservoir to view the sunset there. The both of us took a few pics and here they are.

While we're there, we enjoyed the breeze and watching ppl fishing, kids play and also not to mention.. There was a few noisy ppl there and one of their kid keep shouting "Marr-Meee Marr-Meee". Kinda turn off after hearing it..

While we seat down, poor bunniyiee got bitten by ants on her feet!! See! I told you your feet also smells good to the ants! Lolx.

Bunniyiee and i decided to goto Serangoon Garden's famous westen food to have our dinner!! After reaching there and guess what!? The stall is GONE!!!! T___T" So bunniyiee suggest that we go and eat the famous hainanese chicken rice!!

We ordered one small plate of hainanese chicken + 2x chicken rice, sweet and sour fish and oyster omelette with 2 drinks! The food there is GREAT! It's a MUST to try it out if you haven't!! It's just beside the McDonalds/ThaiExpress.

Wow. Look at the time! Time for me to MMmmMmmoOOooOoooo~

Love ya Bunniyiee!!
Oh yeah! Nice Worm Dance!! xD

Nitez all!

2009-04-25T11:54:00.002+08:00

Feel very happy today, why? Coz i got a new BED!!!!! Wahaha! Thx to you of coz! ^^"

Bunniyiee accompany me for my root canal appointment today and i admit that i was feeling kinda nervous while waiting for my turn to see the dentist... I can see that she wasn't very happy when i joke about me being shy in front of the female dentist and of coz i also can see that she being worried for me. SORRY!! =X

After i went in, everything went smoothly, the only part that hurts is the jab to make my gums numb and apparently it made my tongue numb too!! Lolx!!!

Thx for taking your time to accompany me and sorry that you have to always wait for me like that.. I feel so guilty to always let you wait for me..

Just wanna let you know that i love you and no one will never ever take your place in my heart as it's only you that my heart beats for..

Took awhile to write you this.. This is for you my love..

Forever takes me by a minute,
While I'm here with you.
I'm falling even more in love,
With everything you do.
Hold me in your arms,
Look deep into my eyes,
Don't turn away and let me go,
Don't ever tell me lies.
I swear I'll never let you go,
I'll always hold On Tight
I'll carry On Day And Night

There aren't enough hours,
In each passing day,
To find all the words,
I wish I could say.
Your kiss will last forever,
Your touch forever warm.
I'll guide you to the sunlight,
And shield you from the storm.
This is what I'm saying,
With everything that's true,
I swear on my life,
That I really do love you.

2009-04-23T23:13:00.004+08:00

Today night went for my riding assessment., being super nervous and all i managed to clear all my obstacles with ease until the last obstacle which is the narrow plank... My bike fell off the plank and i got a immediate failure.. DAMNIT!!!

The scores i got was 10 demerit points and 1 immediate failure... IF I DIDN'T GET THAT IMMEDIATE FAILURE I WOULD HAD PASSED!! T_____T

Felt so sorry towards my bunniyieee, coz she have to wait for a longer time for me to get my license... Felt that i've kinda let you down alittle.. After telling her that i've failed and being sad and all, she decided to come all the way down after her night class plus dinner at queensway..

Even i told her not to come as it's already very late and she can't stay for long as there will be no bus for her to go back but she still insist on coming over to look for me.. Even it's just for less then 1hr... I'm really grateful for what you've done.. Really am..

I promise i'll try harder for my next assessment.. I'll do my very best to clear it!

Bunniyiee...

Thank you...

2009-04-16T22:19:00.005+08:00

Today is like a super miserable day for me as i'm missing you dearly... Altho we've been apart for merely 2 days but it seems like weeks for me... I just felt that i haven't get to see you for a long long time... =(

Every hr every min you're on my mind, i can even imagine your face right b4 me... I really do miss you my dear, my love...

I wish that we will meet up soon.. I'm longing for the day we can get to see each another again.. I miss everything about you..

Took sometime at work and after work to write you this...

To My Bunniggiieee~

My Angel, My Sweet Bunniggiieee,
How I long for us once again to meet.
How I long to run my fingers though your hair
and to smell your scent in the air.
Oh how I long to feel your face,
and to sense your gentle presence all over the place.
I want to caress your entire body so tenderly,
as I hold you so close, oh so lovingly.
And when we kiss, your passion I do taste.
How I long for the time that separates us to make haste.
For it is by many a mile that we are apart,
but never fear, My Angel, My Sweet Bunniggiieee, it is for you that beats my heart.
And that alone is enough for now to sense you near,
Until the day your melodic voice I once again do hear.
It is your love that once upon a time set me free,
And now it is with you,
My Angel, My Sweet Bunniggiieee, forever together I want to be.

I'm so lovin' you..

2009-04-15T20:48:00.004+08:00

One after another...

On my sunday post i talked about me going to the dentist and something happened to me on monday evening.. I sprained my ankle when i was rushing down my stairs.. Yeah.. Seem like i'm in some kind of bad luck curse.. Whoever is doing it, you're doing a good job.

Here's a look at my swollen pig's ankle. Don't mind my hairy leg... Ouch~ ><"

Also, i would like to thank you for coming all the way here to pei wo go see tie da and buy some clothes and bermudas! The weather was so hot, sorry that you have to wait in the heat for me for so long.. I'll always remember and apreciate all the things you've done for me.

I love you.

My Bunny Girl. =X

2009-04-14T22:38:00.003+08:00

Just wanna take this time to tell you how grateful i am to you. You've shown me your care and concern from the every start, all the things you've done for me, all the troubles you've gone thru just for me, No one has ever did what you did for me in my life..

Altho the word "Thank you" will never be enough to tell you how grateful i am to you, I still wanna say... Thank you. Thank you for everything and i really mean EVERYTHING you've done for me.. I really feel touched and loved by someone for the every first time!

I want to tell you "Thank you,"
But it doesn’t seem enough.
Words don’t seem sufficient,
"Blah, blah" and all that stuff.Please know I have deep feelings
About your selfless act.
I really appreciate you;
You’re special, and that’s a fact!

I'll always love, care, cherish and appreciate you for the rest of my life...

2009-04-13T00:12:00.003+08:00

Went for paintball training even tho my tooth are aching.. It's been 3days now and i can hardly sleep at night coz i always feel the pulsing pain and it's really really annoying and irritating. Can't stand the pain anymore, so i call the dental clinic up and made an appointment for this even at 5:30pm.

After my tiring paintball i got home to watch up all my gears, for the first time my gears was so damn dirty and all covered in mud. Finally cleaned up all my gears thx to "you". After i've done everything i managed to get some rest as it was kinda early from my appointment time.

Went down to the dental clinic with "you" at about 5:15m and when to see the dentist for my tooth prob... After he took a look and some testing later, he told me that i have to choice.. 1. Do a Root Canal.. 2. Extraction of the tooth..

I don't wanna extract my tooth la!!! I'm already boh gae already lor! I don't want it to be so damn obvious that i'm boh gae lor!!! I CHOOSE NO.1!!! He told me that it will roughly cost me about $600 plus... T_____T" And i accepted it. This time i'm really going broke le... Sobz! My heart so pain now..

The doc told me that this kind of prob only us ASIANS have and ang mohs DON'T! At that point of time i was like thinking to myself "what.. the... chic... ken...!?!?!? I hate being an asian" Lolx..

So the root canal treatment begins. The jab to make my gum/mouth numb was the killer. Damn pain when the dentist stick it into my gum!! ><" After that he started to drill a hole into my teeth and extract the nerve, i couldn't really feel anything until he stick some kind of needle looking think into my teeth to extract the nerve. I told the doc i feel kinda pain so he give me a jab again this time into my teeth.... ><" After that everything went ok i guess....

The Root Canal treatment will take 3 session to finish. Finished 1.. 2 more to go...

Thx for going thru the troubles just to be there with me. Love you super duper lots MORE!! Lolx!! xP

2009-04-12T00:13:00.003+08:00

Last night decided that i'm gonna get something for you as i didn't get you anything on the special day itself..

Went thru lots of stuff on the net in search of something that you'll like and ended up with this person selling Hello Kittys stuff, went thru all the stuff and saw a few things that i was thinking of getting it for you, Hello Kitty's watch n bag. Didn't know if you'll like em so i decided to add the person selling to my msn and get some info from her on the payment and location to get those items if i'm buying em. After getting all the info i need i still can't make up my mind on what colour of the Hello Kitty's watch to get for you.

So i decided to a risk and lie to you that i was getting a prezzie for my cousin's birthday coz i know if i tell you that i'm gonna get it for you, you'll never let me.. After going thru some discussion with you i found out that you don't like to "WEAR" Hello Kitty stuff, you only like to "USE" Hello Kitty's stuff.

After finding out that, i got really nervous as i have to search for others things to get for you but who knows, you send me the swatch link and ask me to look at some of those watches! xD I was kinda shocked that you even took the trouble, time and initiative to ask me search for the prezzie la!

Lolx. We went thru lots and lots of watches and discussed if they look nice or not and stuff for quite some time. Really appreciate it that you're so willingly to go thru so much trouble to help me choose a prezzie for my "cousin".

Today was very nervous as i'm afraid that if i let you know that what i'm about to get is for you, you might just get angry and walk away.. After going to the outlet, i keep asking you to choose like as if you're getting the watch for your own "Lucky you didn't really suspect anything" and after a long discussion and comparing afew watches, we've decided to get the special one!

Went to Gelare for the very first time.. Yeah i know what you're thinking of me... You're sure thinking that i'm a "Mountain Turtle RIGHT?!" I don't denie it myself. LOLX!!

AND WE HAD THIS!!!

I'm really glad that you didn't get angry or anything after i tell you that i actually got the watch for you.

Thanks for going with me and so willingly being my hand model! Lolx! Hope you'll love the gift.

2009-04-10T19:53:00.012+08:00

Just wanna let everyone know that i'll be taking part in the SPNS 09 (Singapore Paintball Novice Series 09) Leg 2.

YES! The 1st paintball tournament out of the usual paintball park.

Since its being held at Pasir Ris Park, you are bound to recieve lots of attention and noise at the event.

So what are you waiting for, come on down to catch all the intense action on 17th May or be left out missing all the good stuff.

And also, you'll be part of the crowd as being part of the 1st ever paintball tournament in public spaces.

for more details, visit;
www.weplaypaintball.com/forum

Happen to came across my cousin's "Eugene" blog and found that he got hold of a pic that was taken on our SPNS 09 (Singapore Paintball Novice Series 09) after we won 2nd runners' up in Leg 1. I think it's a nice photo no?

Damn i look good on that photo! LOLX!! xD

Just wanna let you know that you've always been on my mind and will always be.

Love you with all my heart and soul.

My Angel.

My Love.

2009-04-09T23:35:00.002+08:00

Just wanna say sorry for what was suppose to be a fun day that turn out to be boring one. Stupid weather.. ><" Altho it's kinda boring but i still enjoyed going out with you and watch the movie. Hehe.. It's was a great MOVIE also! Lolx. Omg. I really enjoyed the movie la. xD

Promise i'll repay you back the place that we should have visited today and also! Your Prezzie! =P

Just remember what my friend once told me:

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

2009-04-06T22:49:00.002+08:00

I've learned that tomrrow's hopes and dreams may never die for as long as u believe in yourself and follow your heart. I can say that i found the magic in a moment when i felt confused. She didn't give up on me and this kept me going, she brought the best out of me and there is no wonder when my heart misses a beat... its just her. The nights that one time seemed so dark became complete and she gave me a theme for all my dreams. Love must bring the happiness that we all need to live and loving others with dignity and respect is the key to achieve the greatest success, everlasting love in life. I smile sometimes when no one sees me because i'm happy and someone up there left a message for me and the message said, "never give up always have faith in yourself and you will gain the greatest gift of all, the gift of hope and love that you deserve.

Thank you my angel for the happiness, i couldn't have asked for more...

For my sweet baby... If this is a dream i don't wanna wake up..

2009-03-31T19:08:00.002+08:00

Day: 9!!!

Finally it's day 9 le!! Yesh! Finally i've waited till this day and it's the day that you'll be back!! xD I'm so so damn happy right now coz you'll be coming back tonight! How i wish that i can be there to fetch you. Just hope that you'll have a safe trip back! I just can't wait for the day that i'll get to meet up with ya again! Lolx.. Just have to wait patiently at my home for you call once you get back. xD

Suddenly my world seems to filled with wonderful colours again. Haha.. I know it sound kinda cheesy but hey.. I'm really very happy now ok. I'm like jumping up and down in my room. LOLX!! I'm just keep thinking "Wow you're coming back, wow you're coming back right now!" Hehe.. =x

So many things i wanna say and tell you, so wanna see you face to face..

Have a safe trip back....

2009-03-30T21:21:00.002+08:00

Day: 8

Tmr is the day that you'll be back!!! Can't believe that finally i've waited and got thru this 9 long and seems never ending days.. Can't wait for you to be back tmr! Can't wait to spend time with you again!!

There's something that i need to tell you from deep within my heart and i've kinda made it into a poem just for you. Hope you'll love it..

After I stopped believing
that love could ever be real.
Giving up on what I knew,
I thought my heart wouldn't heal.

To me love was just a game,
a game that I could never win.
Losing everything I had,
everything that could've been.

Then here you come into my life
changing the thoughts in my mind.
Bringing me to a new start
leaving all my pain behind.

You're the reason that I write,
brand new poems of true love.
You've given me the things I need,
everything that I've dreamed of.

You showed me how to love again,
the things I lost; in you I found.
You gave me a reason to smile,
you said I had no need to frown.

I will forever be grateful
for everything you have to give.
All the happiness I needed,
and another reason to live.

Every time I hear your name,
a smile forms across my face.
A new feeling...everlasting,
that I know nothing can replace.

I'm so thankful that I have you,
you're there when I need you most.
I don't want anything else,
I just want to hold you close.

I know you'll stay right by my side,
and walk with me that extra mile.
Your love is my reason to live,
and you are my reason to smile.

I was born to tell you i love you...

I'll be waiting for you...

2009-03-29T20:27:00.003+08:00

Day: 7

Day 7 had past and there is still 2 more days to go... I really really misses you. Each pasing day seems like weeks, each pasing hr seems like days to me but i believe that we can get thru this then we can meet again. I'll be looking forward till that day...

Today went to "Sao Mu" with my big big family, even took a few pic just to show you.. Lolx.. I know it's kinda boh liao but still.. Think you might wanna have alook. Hehe..

Just want you to know that i'll never ever get tired of being with you. I've always cherish you from the very start and will never stop cherishing you de. =) So pls don't think that being with you will ever makes me tired okie? I really love you very much. So pls have faith in me.

2009-03-28T20:39:00.003+08:00

Day: 6

It's day 6 now.. 3 more days to go till you return.. While waiting for your return, i took the time to kinda clean and tidy my room again..

Just got your sms saying that you won't be able to call or sms me anymore.. I bust into tears when i read it.. I guess i'll just have to try and tahan for the rest of 3days.. Want you to know that baby and i misses you alot. Pls return safely to us ok..? My love for you will never end. This time i really don't know if i can ever get myself to sleep... Really have to force myself to sleep.

2009-03-27T23:33:00.003+08:00

Day: 5

Went to take my bike lesson today as i promised and at first i tot that i've already long forgotten how to ride anymore, so when i was there i ask the instructor if he can show me what i have to do in the circuit and guess what? I didn't really lose my touch at all! Lolx. Very fast i recalled what to do and stuff and soon i'm off alone doing my circuit revision. Hehe..

Been thinking of you alot. Don't know if i can sleep well tonight without hearing from you since your unable to call, miss you so so much. Just wanna let you know that everything that i've smsed you is come from deep within my heart and all true..

I love you, and alway will. Forever will.

2009-03-26T19:56:00.004+08:00

Day: 4

It's 4 days since you've gone away, hope that you did kept to your promise and take good care of yourself over there, don't come home sick alrighty? ^^" Can't wait for you return so that we can hang out together again. Hehe.. Hope that baby is taking care of you at night too. If not when he comes back i'll spank his butt. Lolx..

Today when going home in the company bus, we got caught in the jam.. Until 7:07pm then i reached sengkang mrt.. Sorry that i keep msging you telling you how frustrated i am and stuff and thank you for taking the time to call me and hear me out and still tell me that you're gonna have steamboat for dinner!! xD~ You made me so hungry and wishing that i were there to eat with you! Lolx.. Must enjoy your dinner yeah. <33 u =)

I love you more than you can imagine
When I see your face it brighten up my day
I love you more than words can ever tell
Even more than what im about to say

I don't remember the last time i felt like this
You make me feel the real me
You don't know how happy it makes me
When I can share things with you,comfortably

I love the way you smile
I love the way you make me laugh
And you give me hope....
When things get a little sad

All of your hugs makes me feel free
From all the drama and trouble that life brings my way
If i would have 1 wish and one wish only
I wish for this love to be here to stay.

2009-03-25T21:03:00.003+08:00

Day: 3

Time seems to past so slowly this few days... Been thinking about you day and night.. Even took 2 pic at work and mms em to you. Lolx... Hope at least it made you smile a little. Hehe..

Finally got the letter you sent me!!! Really sorry that i scolded you for not sleeping that day, after i read everything i feel so bad for doing what i did.. I feel so touched for all the things you've done for me, How i wish you were here with me, never in my life had anyone done so so much things for me and i really mean NEVER in my life, i feel so lucky and blessed to have you.

For the every first time i feel that i'm loved and cared for.

I'll be waiting for you safe return.. Miss you..

2009-03-24T19:11:00.002+08:00

Day: 2

With the help of our baby, i managed to sleep again.. This time.. You call at midnight and i can't hear the ringing of my hp, suddenly i woke up at about 3 plus in the morning and check my hp and notice that there was an overseas call and the first thing i tot of is "OMG did you tried to called me!?"

Waking up hating myself for not being able to hear my hp ring.. T____T Then, YOU CALLED AGAIN!! I couldn't believe what i've heard from the other side of the phone, IT'S YOU!! xD I was so so so damn happy to hear your voice on the other line.

I never ever tot that i'll get to hear your voice for this few days de. Lolx.. So Happy. Thx you for taking all the touble to give me a call.

2009-03-23T18:56:00.003+08:00

Day: 1

Forced myself to sleep last night and finally managed to do so.. Today is the day that you'll be away for 9days/216hrs/12960mins/777600secs... I hope that i can get thru this 9days.. Waiting for your safe return..

You were on my mind when i woke up this morning
remembering your smile
i guess the next time i'll see your face
will take a little while
i was remembering your arms around me
love the way they always feel warm
with you by my side
i completely feel no harm
i was remembering your voice
makes my heart skip a beat
but without you baby
my whole body's weak
i was remembering our times
the good and the bad
the funny times when you cheered me up
and especially the sad
remembering your eyes
how they always meet mine
remembering all the little things you do
to make my life worthwhile
i was wondering when we'll be together
just us two
i guess i'm missing you more than i usually do..

2009-03-11T22:14:00.000+08:00

Just for you..

I cannot ease your aching heart,
Nor take the pain away.
But let me stay and take your hand
And walk with you today.
I’ll listen when you need to talk,
I’ll wipe your tears away.
I’ll share your worries when they come,
I’ll help you face your fears.
I’m here and I will stand by you,
Each hill you have to climb.
So take my hand lets face the word,
Live one day at a time.
You’re not alone for I’m still here,
I’ll go that extra mile,
And when your grief is easier,
I’ll help you learn to smile

2009-02-27T20:58:00.003+08:00

Just wanna share this Music Video with you guys out there.

Emo me. xD

SUPERSTAR SATURDAY

2009-02-24T21:52:00.006+08:00

Woohoo!! Superstar Saturday! Why? Coz on last friday i got a call from one of my teammate Gwydion, saying that on saturday there will be alot of photographers going down to our paintball field to take photos of us. From what i know is that their from "nominees of 100% SPORT ON! Ambassador Programme Workshop 1"

So saturday i went down to the paintball field with my cousin and my teammate and i was shocked.. Really makes me feels like we're the superstars of paintballs!! xD Didn't know that there will be this much ppl there to take our pic while we're playing and later after our friendly games, they wanted us to pose for the camera with our "breaking out" position.

Below are the website that all our photos are on.

Photos taken by nominees during 100% SPORT ON! Ambassador Programme Workshop 1 on 21st and 22nd Feb 2009 at Bottle Tree Park

There is 1105 photos in total. Slowly Enjoy and careful not to let your eyes pop out. Lolx.

100% SPORT ON! Ambassador Programme

For those who don't know which is me, look at this pic.

SPNS 2009 Leg1

2009-02-04T19:20:00.002+08:00

Here is the pics that we've taken while we're at the tournament. We got into 2nd runners' up!

Enjoy!!

This is me and some of my teammate taken from a pro photographer.

This guy here is our mentor.

SPNS Tmr..

2009-01-31T21:24:00.003+08:00

Tmr is the big day.. 1st Feb is my paintball tournament day. Gonna reach there about 8am until evening time i guess. Hmmm.. Really need to relax myself when i'm in the field. Hehe... I know i can do it. I know we can do it as a team too. Too bad i don't think i can get any pic up tho. Will be too busy anyways. If there is someone there to cheer me on will be even better but!! Lolx. That will never happen la. =P I will cheer for meself then!

GaMbAtTe CaVin~!!!!

Need to go and prepare my stuff for tmr now, hope everything goes well.

Team Dark Militia.

2009-01-27T12:35:00.006+08:00

Here is my team that is going to take part in the SPNS aka Singapore Paintball Novice Series on this coming 1st Feb 2009.

Our team name is Dark Militia.

2009-01-26T10:07:00.003+08:00

Got nothing to do so i took this pic at night and kinda edit it. Pls leave your comments. Thx.

KIKO's Clinic.

2009-01-26T09:02:00.002+08:00

Got some videos from a pro teaching us how to play paintball yesterday. I even almost got it in my nuts while i was filming. =.="

Enjoy.

2009-01-23T19:32:00.005+08:00

Here's the photos taken while i'm at the BTO aka "Basic Tournament Orientation" for paintball. After taking this, then i can take part in Feb 1st 2009 SPNS aka "Singapore Paintball Novice Series 2009"!!

They random pick us into 4 teams, 2 teams with 5 man each and 2 teams with 4 man each, my team is the 4 man team. Played 2 rounds, 1st round is 4 v 4 and my team won with me being the last 2 man standing and i capture the flag, 2nd round is 4 v 5 and i'm the only one standing and again i cap the flag again.

Hehe.. Thx to Eugene for taking pics and video!

The video is super short.. Didn't really focus on me also. Anyways, hope you guys enjoy. =)

2009-01-21T21:04:00.004+08:00

Website that you must visit if you wanna have a look at pro paintball. Don't press Enter, wait for the video to load and play. If still nothing comes out, click enter and click on video player and wait for the video to play.

http://www.teamironmen.com/

My idol is Oliver Lang from team Ironmen!

HATE HIM!

2009-01-16T21:58:00.003+08:00

Argh! I hate my dad so damn bloody much! Everyday came home drunk and make so much fooking noise late at night, on the bloody tv so damn freaking loud that it's so bloody annoying!! I really don't know how long i can take all this crap that he is doing! Bloody smoke and make until my whole room so farking smelly! GAH! I hate you to the CORE! Just wish that you'll bloody die and i don't have to deal with you anymore! GET THE HELL OUT OF MY LIFE PLEASE!

Battle Over

2009-01-11T20:08:00.007+08:00

When to play paintball like i said earlier and we had lots and lots of fun altho it was meant to be 5 on 5 but last min one of the guy can't make it so it was 4 on 5. $50 for 3 games with 250 paintball bullets. It was great that they decided to let us play in the big field since there wasn't anyone playing at that time. It was really fun and by the time the 3rd game start, you'll really start to catch your breath. Lolx!

Kill afew, died afew, headshot afew, got headshot too. Hehe. It's really really a fun game, it's just too bad that it ends so fast. ><"

Below are the cousins, girlfriend & gang that i went with and we took these pics after the game. I'm the one wearing blue with the digital camo mask. Some of them have some cuts and bruises after the game too..

New Mask for PaintBall!!

2009-01-11T11:00:00.005+08:00

Yesterday when out with my cousin to get my first PaintBall Mask which cost me $198.

Today i'm going to "WAR". xD The website of the place is http://www.weplaypaintball.com/index.html. Add is at Bottle Tree Park 81 Lorong Chencharu (Yishun), Singapore 769198.

Here is a look at my mask.

Spend $700++

2008-12-27T21:20:00.003+08:00

Today i spend $700++ on my shopping.. Got myself a SEIKO watch for $430, 2 pair of Levis jeans at $100, a pair or Adidas shoes for $142, facial wash for $22 and had dinner at Fish & Co. which cost $55.

And still i'm missing out my shirt.. Guess i'm gonna go have a look at ISETAN when i have time coz i have $100 worth of voucher!! T_T" First time in my life i've spend so so much money in a day.. Told myself that i'm gonna just buy what i need and don't care about the price, that's why spend so much... Kanna feel the pain that i burnt a BIG hole in my savings... Argh... Lolx...

XMAS!

2008-12-24T05:36:00.003+08:00

Here wishing all the good ppl that visits my blog a Happy & Wondering Xmas & a Happy New Year!

Remember to be good or else Santa won't be sending you any prezzies! =P

My First.

2008-12-18T21:24:00.002+08:00

Today i did something for the first time in my whole life.

I DONATED MY BLOOD! xD

The BloodBank@HSA (Health Sciences Authority) came to our company today. I've been wanting to donate my blood but i didn't make myself to do it.

At first i was kinda nervous and then later i kinda tell myself to just go for it and register for blood donation. Hehe.. Kinda will so happy after i've made my mind to donate. =P

I've made up my mind to keep donating my blood whenever i can!! =)

2008-12-13T09:45:00.001+08:00

Without You. Days Are Like: "Moanday" "Tearsday" "Wasteday" "Thirstday" "Frightday" "Shatterday" & "Sadday"

D&D!!!

2008-12-07T00:52:00.004+08:00

Just got back from my company's D&D~ Guess what......?

Altho i envy those that have their own partner to bring along~ I still managed to enjoyed myself, we ate, drunk, sang, DANCED! WOOHOO!!! It's really fun since it's the first time that i've been to this kind of function. Hehe..

Didn't know that i can let myself go and dance like crazy lor~ Think i just let go of everything at that moment and let myself party for the very first time. Haha.. Really enjoyed it alot!

Sorry that i didn't took any pics tho... I wanted to!! But my hp isn't good at taking photos and some more it's dark. So... Yeah. Sorry~ =x

Toothache

2008-12-01T19:47:00.001+08:00

9am i went to make an appointment and 2pm i get to extracted one of my tooth.. Cost me $75 tho. Hmm... Now still kinda hurts.. ><" Call me Mr BohGei~ T__T

Toothache

2008-12-01T05:38:00.003+08:00

It's 5:39am now... Sobz~ Having toothache.. Can hardly eat or sleep at night also~ Been popping Panadol~ ><" Altho i know it's bad for my health but i got no choice... Argh it hurts! ><"

Going to the dental to have my tooth extracted later at about 9am today i guess. T_T Don't wanna be boh gei~ Sobz sobz. =/

2008-11-11T21:08:00.001+08:00

4 Seasons Of Loneliness lyrics
I long for the warmth of days gone by
When you were mine
But now those days are memories in time
Life's empty without you by my side
My heart belongs to you
No matter what I try

When I get courage up to love somebody new
It always falls apart cause they just
Can't compare to you
You love won't release me
I'm bound under ball and chain
Reminiscing our love as I watch four season's change

[Chorus: ]
In comes the winter breeze
That chills the air and drifts the snow
And I imagine kissing you under the mistletoe
When springtime makes its way here
Lilac blooms reminds me of the scent of your perfume
When summer burns with heat
I always get the hots for you
Go skinny dippin' in the ocean where we used to do
When autumn sheds the leaves the trees are bare
When you're not here it doesn't feel the same

Remember the nights when we closed our eyes
And vowed that you and I would be in love for all time
Anytime I think about these things is shared with you
I break down and cry cause I get so emotional
Until you release me I'm bound under ball and chain
Reminiscing our love as I watch four seasons change

[Chorus]

This loneliness
Has crushed my heart
Please let me love again
Cause I need your love to comfort me and ease my pain
Or four seasons will bring the loneliness again

[Chorus ]

New

2008-11-06T19:28:00.002+08:00

Changed some layout of my blog. Lolx. Nothing much to do and really think my blog need to have a new face make over! xD Still very very noob at all this tho. Hehe.. Anyways, this is what i did.

Also added my photo on the top. Haha.. I think it's a nice shot tho. Taken at my work place. =X Shhhh I know. LOLX!

New songs

2008-11-04T19:16:00.002+08:00

Have to start to lose me some weight. I wanna look good at my company's D&D!! Cavin i know you can do it de. Gambatte!

Just uploaded some new songs. Still there is some songs that i can't seems to find it. Sigh. Anyways i think also not much ppl reading my blog anyways. xD Oh well. Hmmm.. Hope IF there is anyone reading, you might love the songs. Lolx.

LONG TIME!

2008-10-28T01:30:00.002+08:00

WOOOO! It's really really been a long long time since i post on my blog.. Hehe... So sorry about that.. Just watched "Money not enuff 2" and you know what? I cry like a girl. =.=" Can't believe i watch until so ru shen lor... ><" Lolx.. And btw, i'm playing WarHammer Online now. =X

Hmmm... Guess i'm going to sleep liao le. Hehe.. Nitez all. =P

Here it is!

2008-10-05T17:19:00.008+08:00

ALRIGHT! Here's the Photos from me and one of my cousin's bridday! We celebrate together. xD

I cook up something for them which i think isn't that nice BUT lucky we still ordered KFC & Pizza!! YUM YUM!! =D~

Cousins and Partners!

We're under attacked!!! Argh~!

Birdday Boys. xD Time to sing us a birdday song!

Make a wish!!

Time to cut the cake!!!

Lets take pic while in mid air!!! LOLX!

Wahaha!! My fav part~! Open present time!!! xD
Do i look alike with the T-Shirt?

Monkey face!

Weeee~!

Thx everyone who attended the party and surely THX alot for the gifts!!! LOVE EM ALL!!!

Sorry~

2008-10-05T14:25:00.002+08:00

Sorry that i haven't been updating my blog guys, still trying to get my hands on those photos that i took at my birdday celebration with my cousins. ><" Really sorry to keep you guys waiting...

Anyways, live been the same for me, nothing really change.. Right i'm kinda like trying to start saving money for my future "Wife? House? Bike? Car?".. Don't really know why i did but it might come in handy next time when i need it..

Still sitting my butts off here thinking how wonderful it will be to really have someone to share my everything with. Lolx.. Yeah i know.. Cavin! You should stop thinking about all this and concentrate on your work!! Bah~ I know all that but don't you sometime just feel slowing down in life and think about stuff and wonder lots of things? Guess sometimes i really will get carried away with all my emotions... Sigh.

Just wish that my life will get better soon.

Best Birhtday!!

2008-09-28T06:17:00.003+08:00

WOOHOO~! Greatest Birthday Celebration! Wanna thx all my cousins for showing up and celebrate with me my birthday! Hope you guys also enjoyed yourself! xD

I'll try to upload photos to show you guys the party!

Birthday coming!!

2008-09-22T19:40:00.002+08:00

YESH~! My birthday is coming~~ On the 28th Sept~ Tho there's no someone special to celebrate with me, at least, i still have my cousins!

Plan to celebrate with my cousin together at hold a stay over party at my cousin's house! Haha~ I bet it's gonna be fun. =P So happy and looking forward till that day~ Hehe~

Happy Advance Birthday Cavin~!

Wish you'll be happy forever and be as cheerful as you can be!~ =X

Slack...

2008-09-18T21:13:00.002+08:00

Today i really don't really have the mood to work properly.. WAKE UP CAVIN!!! @_@"

Been really slacking on blogging lately.. Also, Lately i seems to have the feeling of going to swim after my work. Hehe.. I really love swimming alot and i wanna swim!! 'xD

Feeling kinda down

2008-09-10T20:01:00.003+08:00

Feeling kinda down, lonely and miserable.. Wish that there is someone here with me by my side... Sigh..

Hard Working Me.

2008-09-02T18:42:00.004+08:00

Kinda sprinted my wrist last friday.. Monday went to work and carry alot of heavy things coz we need to do some Material Shifting in the workshop and that no one wanna help so i did my best to help carry all the heavy things, wrist kinda got worsted and today have to continue shift the Material in the container freezer also. Even hurt my finger and got swollen with blue black. Lolx.. What to do when not much ppl wanna help out to do all this shit work. Hopfully tmr my wrist will feel better. ^,..,^"

BTW! I search for this yesterday and if you guys haven't watch this! YOU GOTTO WATCH IT!!

She's so CUTE and talented right!?!? If i have a daughter like her, i'll love and pamper her till the sky drops down. xD

Weekends!

2008-08-30T10:54:00.001+08:00

It's the weekend~ Finally waited for it to come le! ^^" Everyone enjoy your weekends~! Cheeeeers~!

It can only get better

2008-08-25T15:15:00.002+08:00

Lives may seems dark and sad for me.. All alone in the corner of nowhere. No one to share my everything with.. Don't wanna be walking alone thru out my life.. Just wish that someday.. Somewhere.. I'll find you. Everything can only get better when there is you by my side..

Let the sun refuse to shine
It won't be long before the days are brighter
If every step's an uphill climb, oohh
Carry on until they feel much lighter
For all the clouds up in the sky, oohh
For all the teardrops in our eyes

It can get only get better
Be still my heart
It can only get better
We've come this far
It can only get better
I know it hurts
For what it's worth
It can only get better

If he should ever come our way
Dry the tears and look somewhere above him
Might be easier to say than to do
But just pretend that you no longer love him
When your back's against the ropes, oohh
When you miss someone the most

It can get only get better
Be still my heart
It can only get better
We've come this far
It can only get better
I know it hurts
For what it's worth
It can only get better

I know it hurts, oohh
For what it's worth
It can only get better
It can only get better

I know it hurts
For what it's worth
It can only get better
It can only get better

Wii

2008-08-21T20:27:00.002+08:00

Sent my Wii for mod yesterday~ Guess i'll also get myself a remote + nunchuck too~ Hmmm.. Really can't wait to get back my Wii so that i can play but kinda bored when playing Wii alone... =/

Loneliness.....

2008-08-19T20:21:00.000+08:00

A quick note,
A rushed phone call,
A smile from a photo taken far away.
The knowledge that the one you love,
Loves you equally.
These, that germinate the seeds of longing,
A longing immense…never before felt.
One that pulls at the heart without remorse.
Yet from the pain instilled,
Infinite pleasures are born.

The thought of once again,
Holding you in my now empty arms.
Memories of the sweet taste
Of your warm lips on mine.
Remembering the scent of a far off love…
Anticipation of the moment our bodies will touch,
Entwined in a timeless moment of passion.
These somehow subdue the longing…
Allowing the heart to continue its beat,
For the days of longing now grow short.

Funny

2008-08-15T20:12:00.002+08:00

Today is my last day being in the training center! Wee! Finally i'm going back to my R&D Cell le! YESH! Can get to learn more new things again! Hehe! =P

Remember i got my new clothes yesterday? Lolx.. One of my clothes i get is for female de... =.=" Haha... Manage to made a change today when i get back to the shop. Hehe... ^,...,^"

Went for run with my friend after i reach home. Kinda had a good run too. =)

Thinking if i should take my Wii and mod it. =x It will cost me $150 after discount tho... Hmmm... Should i or now~? ><" So many things i feel like buying but i also wanna save money~ Sobz~ =x

New Clothes

2008-08-14T19:02:00.003+08:00

My tears seems to flow down alittle last night.. Finally got to force myself to sleep..

Cheer up Cavin! World is not the end! Lord will always walk me thru all my ups and down de!

Today saw a new promotion going on at Giordano, go i when down to SengKeng after work since my company bus drop us off over there and got myself 2 new clothes, one of it i think it's very cute. Haha. Finally got myself few new clothes. Hehe!

Why Did I Saw You...

2008-08-13T18:22:00.003+08:00

Why did i saw you on the MRT today when i'm going home.. Tho you kinda acted like we don't know each another, so i also act like i don't know you too when our eyes meet.. All the memories starts to came back into my mind.. I tried to act everything is all right and keep talking to my friend from work... I'm happy to see you doing fine in life but on the other hand... I started to feel kinda down and sad all again.. Guess there's still part of me that still loves you and wish that all those things never ever happened but what happen has happened...

Ever since we broke up 3yrs ago, i've been missing all the days that we had when we were together.. Guess i'm just not good enuff for you.. =/ Wish i can really move on with my life without you in it...

Just wanna let you know that i really really misses you very much. Take good care of yourself and wish you all the best in whatever things that you do..

Tears Back...

Olympic Rocks!

2008-08-11T13:03:00.002+08:00

Yay! Olympic is on it's way already and damn it's really nice to watch! Haha! The opening was really really great! Just can't stop watching all the matches!

Wondering if i should take leave tmr to have a super long weekend. Lolx Tho today is my holiday too. Hehe.. Well, i'm still in the training center and will be going back to R&D on 18th Aug. Can't really believe that all this while i'm in the training center helping my trainer to teach other new employees, guess my trainer really have lots of trust in me to let me handle them and teach them for 2 months on what i've learned. I'm really greatful to him for letting me experience what it's like to be a trainer! I'm really really lucky to get the job i have now.

Thank you Lord. For always being there for me.

Poems

2008-08-08T19:56:00.005+08:00

I must accept but can't what cannot be.
I see you and my heart dissolves in pain.
You are not dead, but you are dead to me.

What happened to our love's a mystery.
I rummage through our empty past in vain.
I must accept but can't what cannot be:

That someone else now shares your off-hand "we,"
Now feels your tender tongue all feeling drain . . .
You are not dead, but you are dead to me.

I cannot lay aside my agony:
Again, again I play the same refrain.
I must accept but can't what cannot be.

And yet I know this tortured ecstasy
Is just my way of holding you again.
You are not dead, but you are dead to me,

And still I cannot bear to set you free,
That of our love some remnant might remain.
I must accept but can't what cannot be.
You are not dead, but you are dead to me.

__________________________________________

I feel as though my heart lay bleeding
On a countertop.
The pain is like a flooded scream
That cannot, will not stop.

I cannot live, I cannot breathe;
Pain is all I do.
I cannot think how I can be
Long living without you.

Ah, God! I want you back so bad
That I would gladly die
To hold you in my arms again
And not care how or why;

To hold you in my arms again
And tell you of my love,
And then go gladly back to dust
Should I your heart not move.

Can't Take It Anymore.

2008-08-06T18:23:00.003+08:00

I really can't take it anymore... Everyday after work when i reach home i have to listen to all the fucking loud music that my idiotic dad is listening. Gah! I really really can't take all this shit anymore! I'm gonna find one day and do something to his new sound system. >=| Why do i really have a fucking dad like this. Really. What the hell did i do wrong. Why can't he just let me live in PEACE!?!?! Even at night when i'm trying to sleep he also on his fucking tv/music so fucking loud that it is making me losing my sleeping time. Can't he just give a tot of me that i have to wake up everyday at 5am and i only have like 5hrs of sleeping time!? I FUCKING HATE YOU YOU PRICK!

I JUST WANNA LIVE IN PEACE WITHOUT YOU IN MY LIFE! I WISH YOU'RE OUT OF MY FUCKING LIFE!!

Friday~

2008-07-25T23:14:00.001+08:00

It's Friday~ Haha~ Weekends is here!! Gonna sleep sleep and sleep!! =x

Believe In Yourself

2008-07-24T18:57:00.002+08:00

Have to believe in myself that i can work hard at work. =) Just wish that there is someone to share my everything.. At least.. Let me have a reason to go on..

Have to do what i have to do.

2008-07-23T22:22:00.003+08:00

Didn't really let you guys know that i've been send to the training center to train on another trade, i was train on mechanical but now i'm being train on composite, which is a new material that is being used on aircraft but i've already learned some of the composite skills from my seniors Hehe.. I'm so lucky to have a dual trade skill. =x So right now i'm still in the training center helping out my trainer to train some of the new guys. xD Didn't know that i'll get a chance to train other ppl too =x

Lives been good to me except that i'll feel lonely and sad here and there.. Hmmm.. Been working and trying to learn as much as i can at work too. Really really lucky that i have ppl that is really willing to teach me and guide me. =)

Thank you lord. Love you lots for blessing me.

Feeling Down...

2008-07-21T20:46:00.006+08:00

Feeling kinda down lately? That's why i haven't really been updating my blog. Haha.. I know it's been kinda like a ghost town.. But i guess it makes not diff anyways...

[Verse 1:]
Beep Beep oh look now there goes my phone
And once again im just hoping its a text from you..mm..
It aint right read ur messages twice thrice
Four times a night its true
Everyday I patiently wait
Feeling like a fool but I do, anyway
Nothing can feel as sweet and as real
Cuz I know that I wasn't waiting in vain..

[Chorus:]
And maybe its true
Im caught up on you
Maybe there's a chance your stuck on me too
So maybe im wrong
Its all in my head
Maybe we're afraid of words we both haven't said

[Verse 2:]
Im always connected online
Looked on my Facebook all the time
Hoping you've Checked my profile
Just can't help wondering why,
You play it cool but,
I'm hopelessly falling for you,
Every night on the phone I'm..
In love with you, and I know you like it girl
All joking aside,
Let's see you and I
Come out and say what we're trying to hide..

[Chorus:]
And maybe its true
Im caught up on you
Maybe there's a chance your stuck on me too
So maybe im wrong
Its all in my head
Maybe we're afraid of words we both haven't said

[Bridge:]
Like I really want you,
I think I need you,
Baby I miss you,
I'm thinking of you [x2]

[Guitar Solo]

[Chorus:]
And maybe its true (OH)
Im caught up on you (maybe, yeah)
Maybe there's a chance your stuck on me too (Stuck on me too)
So maybe im wrong (Hey baby, yeah..)
Its all in my head.. (OH NO)
Maybe we're afraid of words we both haven't said (both haven't said)

And Maybe Its True Im Caught Up On You
Maybe Theres A Chance You're Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe Im Wrong, And Its All In My Head
Maybe We're Afraid Of Words We Both Hadnt Said

[Outro]
Maybe it's true..(Baby I Miss You)
I'm caught up on you (Look I Want You)
Maybe I am wrong
Baby I miss you...

Quick One

2008-07-16T22:52:00.002+08:00

It's been really very long since i've made a post. So i guess i'm gonna make a quick one tonight b4 i go sleep..

Lives been ok this few days.. Work is still work and when i reaches home, i'm in my world of games.. Lolx. I really love playing online games it seems. =x Maybe i'd find someone who loves playing games with me too next time. Haha.. Who knows right. =)

Oh well, guess i'll stop here and go get some rest now. =x Nitez to whoever reads my blog. IF there is anyone. Lolx!!

Sick

2008-07-10T22:15:00.002+08:00

Got sick on wed morning, woke up at 5am in the morning with the feelings of whole body aching... Went for bath than came out to take my own tamp. It was 38.1degree c... Decided that i'll force myself to work and took 2 panadol, coz monday i already didn't turn up for work as i wanted to rest from coming back from in camp training.

At work was a living hell for me... Really feeling sick and my body and hands are really aching.. My moving were very slow too.. After about 12pm i was feeling a little better until about 3pm+ i start to have the aching feelings again...

Finally manage to get thru the day... When going back home i was like a zombie walking home lor... Reached home and force myself to bath, took temp again and guess what... It's 38degree c lor, so i took 2 more panadol and went to rest... Feel so dead.. =.="

I WISH YOU WERE DEAD!

2008-07-08T22:06:00.004+08:00

HOW I WISH THAT I DON'T HAVE A DAD LIKE YOU! WHY DO I HAVE A FUCKING SHITY FAMILY LIKE THIS!!! WHAT HAVE I DONE DO GET A LIFE LIKE THIS!

Early in the morning i've told my bro to go to school b4 i went out to work and he said ok, went i get back from work i heard from my mum that my bro didn't goto sch coz my dad ask him to goto the temple to help him, what kind of dad who ask his own son don't go sch and go else where? What kind of dad that wanna ruin his son's education!?!?!? Went my bro came home and i ask him to come to my room and i ask him why he didn't go, he just keep saying he told his friend he not going to sch as a reason.

My dad just keep getting himself involve just keep siding my bro. FUCK YOU I HATE YOU! You think i wanna care so much if not for mum!? IF not for mum to ask me to teach my bro good coz she is very tired of scolding him!? I'M SICK OF BEING THE BAD GUY AT HOME!

I'M SICK OF EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE!!!!

Don't wanna be the bad person anymore, not gonna care about anything anymore, just wanna live my own life from now on.

Back!

2008-07-07T00:55:00.003+08:00

Finally my reservice is over! Haha, if i know, i don't declare that i have a camera phone! Coz some of my friend also never declare and they did check! Those that declared, they will keep your phone in the locker until the end of the in camp training lor!! ><" I was so so bored that i can't use my phone to listen to music when i was in there! So i have to force myself to sleep and nights.. T____T

We even have live firing! That was really fun as i was one of the person that was selected to fire a live Projected Line Charge aka PLC! Tho this is the 2nd time i got to fire the live one but it'll still feels good to feel and hear the explosion! WOOT! It's a good in camp training i can say.

Not Feeling Well

2008-06-26T18:31:00.002+08:00

Today half way thru work i start to feel unwell.. Didn't eat much, Didn't drink much water either.. Guess i'm gonna be sick soon.. =( Argh.. Headache~!

Monday going for reservice le.. Until Sat than will be back.. Sigh. Haven't even pack my stuff.. Sianz.

Good News

2008-06-25T18:37:00.002+08:00

Guess what? Got a good news today at the end of work, HR called me and asked me to go and see them to sign some forms and when i reach there and they hand me the forms, it's a contract of employment! Tot i've already sign all those stupid forms already i tot to myself and when i take a read thru those forms and got to know that they appointed me Tech 3, Grade 4 w.e.f. 16 June 08!! Omg! I was so happy ok! I tot i've had to wait until the end of year when i heard from one of my work friend. Also at first they told me that they can't rise my pay when i convert to perm stuff but just now i read the form and it says that i got my pay rise abit! Hehe! Lolx!!!

There is no bond of anything, just some usual info on the benefits and stuff, and also i'm not required to undergo a 3 months probation! Bahaha! So happy lor~! xD

Thank you Lord for blessing me all this while. Thank you..

Rumors

2008-06-23T18:31:00.002+08:00

Didn't really get a good sleep last night.. Kinda teared my way to sleep..

Today reach work with not much time to have my breakfast.. Had to rush to eat something.. Stupid company bus driver, came late and don't even know the way to our work place and ppl have to guide him.. ><"

Heard a good news at work today, heard that my Cell Leader have plans to promote me to Tech 3 by end of this year.. Good news eh? Tho i know it's only Tech 3 but hey, like i said b4, i got no high education so i have to start from lvl 1, and i think it's also good to learn from the basic first and start from there to climb my way up to the top. Gotta try to jiayou on whatever i'm doing.. GAMBATE CAVIN!!!

So happy, reach home and there is curry! I loveeeee curry~! xD~

Feeling Down...

2008-06-22T21:24:00.002+08:00

It's weekend and why am i feeling what i'm feeling now... =| Promised myself that i'm not gonna post what i'm posting now... I just feel so... So......... Down.... Think i should be happy... Happy that at least in game... I'm feeling like the most happy person in the world..... Or should i say.... Cyber World..... How i wish.... That....

Sigh.....

It's Friday~

2008-06-20T19:03:00.002+08:00

Finally it's friday~! xD Been at my work place's training center for 1 week now and still got about a month to go, you might be wondering how come i got converted already still need training? Coz last time i was trained at a Mechanic and now i have to be trained as Composite. It's might be very troublesome but it's always good to get to learn more skills. Anyways, after the training i'm one of the few to have Dual Skilled! =X Another step closer to my gold le! ^^"

Actually i'm very lucky to found this job as i don't have a good education, i almost couldn't got into this trade.. Lucky that i passed my entrance test so i was let in the get the job and even more, i have alot of work friends and seniors that really teaches take care of me. Thank you Lord for blessing me. =)

Sigh, i'm gonna go reservice on 30th June 08 to 05th July 08... Gonna miss outside life..

Officialy Converted

2008-06-16T20:21:00.002+08:00

Finally i got officially converted to perm staff at work already! xD I'm so happy, i'm one step closer to my gold! YES~! Today first half of the day at work was doing some brifing on all the benefits and stuffs. Time flies really very fast lor! Haha. Today really been a good day for me ba.

Reach home and went for a run with my friend and asked one of my work friend to come along and guess what? The both of them know each another also de! Haha! It's really a small world after all. xD

Gonna starting going back to play PerfectWorld Online! Guess i'll put down the webbie here just in case you ppl wanna have a look.

( www.perfectworld.com.my )

Finally!

2008-06-13T18:33:00.002+08:00

Finally! Weekend is here! xD New start and no more emo post~!

Finally the weekend is here, i've made it thru the week tho someday i feel kinda emo, guess i should really try to cheer myself up and try to always look at the bright side of life huh. =) Really looking forward to this weekend i don't know why. Maybe coz i can really give my body some rest time. Lolx.. Friday always seems to cheer me up. =P

Wish everyone around me will have an enjoyable weekend!

Nothing To Blog

2008-06-12T22:04:00.002+08:00

There's nothing to really blog about lately.. Guess there is really nothing going on in my life. All i do everyday is almost the same thing. Wake up, work, go home, surf net, gaming, sleep and it repeats again... Know some ppl will say i got no life and stuff.. Well.. What else can i do when i hardly have any friends to hang out with. Sigh.

Life seems to be so sucky for me...

What Am I?

2008-06-10T18:29:00.002+08:00

Gaming is like a part of my life, my 2nd world, where i can really be myself and no one will give you a doubtful look or whatsoever.. I'm the kind of person that don't really know how to express myself but in game i can do it easily. I'll really feel so free and no stress when i'm in game. Online game. Part of my life forever.

What am i..? What am i....? To me.. I'm just nothing. I know i'm sent to this world for a reason but... What's the reason...? I've yet to find..

About Today.

2008-06-06T20:57:00.003+08:00

Normally i'll have to wakeup at 0500 in the morning to take a shower than move off to the bus stop at 0550 to take bus 22, than i'll reach tampines at about 0640 and wait for bus 37 and i'll reach work place at about 0704 than i will slowly go to my locker and change and slowly take my time and walk to the canteen to have my breakfast.

Tried taking the company bus to work in the morning.. Tho i can sleep abit more when taking company bus but damn the bus really came very late and i reach work at about 0740 at work and i really have to rush to have my breakfast coz work starting at 0800 and 0755 have to leave the canteen and head to the workshop for briefing every morning.

Today at work was ok.. It's friday and i have 1hr 30mins lunch break, used 30mins to eat and the 1hr i went back to my workshop's office to nap for that hr!! =X It's so shiok lor. Haha!

Today reach home and went for a run with my usual friend who stay next to my block. Hehe! After we finish our run in the stadium, he suggest that we have a run outside of the road around our place and so we did. Really enjoyed the run today. It's always nice to sweat alot, at least can release some of the stress that i'm having lately..

Tired,,

2008-06-05T19:22:00.002+08:00

Been kinda tired lately, can't really seem to sleep well at night.. All this songs in my blog really reflect what's in my heart...

Only Lord and Music can walk me thru the life of mine....

Rants

2008-06-03T19:04:00.004+08:00

Just gonna rant for today, Wtf do you think you are? You've been disturbing me everytime when i'm working, there is a limit on how much suaning i can tahan from you ok, you've always been acting like a small boy tho you are one, always abit also get angry at work, oh pls, grow up ok. You think you're so good? Always walk with your fucking head up and walk like you have air around you. I really had enuff today ok. If you're not happy with me just tell it in my face. Don't go around talking behind my back. Don't think that i always don't talk much at work meaning you can treat me like a sick kitten! Tmr if i'm gonna get the same shit from you again, i swear you'll get it from me. FUCK YOU!

Lives' a Tricks

2008-06-02T12:03:00.009+08:00

Didn't turn up to work today, having fever.

Lives seems to be playing tricks with me, one moment you can be really happy and nothing in the world seems to have the power to pull you down and make you really miserable, the other moment everything seems to fall apart.. I know that i have to be strong and take whatever task that you have planned for me Lord. I know.. Somewhere in my life journey i'll be back into your arms in your Kingdom with you for eternity..

What is Love.. To me...? Part of Love is compromise, for a long relationship we have to compromise.. Been almost 3yrs now.. Wondering how have you been, Tho you've hurt me deeply in the past but somehow.. Somewhere in my heart still misses you. You're the only one that i've ever been in love with for so so long and 2 yrs in our relationship just ended like this.. With you sleeping with other guys who you just met... All the love that i've ever shown you.. All the love that i've given just seems nothing to you.. You told me that whatever that i've did and done for you, every other guy also can do it.. Tho i know all the things that i've done for you may seems to be small or nothing to you but they are truly came from deep down inside my heart.. Tho we've not been in contact ever since we broke off... I'll still wish that your life will be filled with happiness, live life to the fullest. Maybe.. Someday, somewhere, our path may cross again..

How often when two people fall in love,
One of them is forced to move away?
We can't convince our hearts that they must move;
In people love just doesn't work that way.
'Cause of all the love I feel for you,
Life will be an unrelenting wound.
Love will shadow everything I do.
Missing you, my heart will be marooned.
In time, of course, my feelings will adjust;
Such pain cannot forever be sustained.
Some visits, letters, phone calls will, I trust,
Yearnings quell, and grades must be maintained.
Oh, but I will miss you, miss you dearly!
Until hell ends, I'll be existing merely.

Got My HydroxyCut!

2008-05-30T21:26:00.005+08:00

Today was a great day actually, enjoyed working today. I always enjoy friday, everyone does anyways. =) PLUS! Every friday we will have 1hr 30mins of lunch time!! So i went out with some of my friends and he drove us to DownTown East to have our lunch over there.

Got my order of HydroxyCut from GNC from my friend at work today, asked him to buy for me since he have the gold member card and plus there is 35% discount till end of this month. ^^ Paid for it for $93 after discount. Original price was $141.95 What a good deal yeah? =X

Came back home from work and went go a run with my good friend. Had a really good run since my stamina had improved... Think i'm gonna skip my dinner..

So sian.. Tho tmr i'm not working but i still have to wake up at about 6 to 6:30am coz meeting my friend at Yishun and wi'll head to Woodlands to have our X-Ray taken. Why? You may ask, coz it's compulsory for everyone to have a full body checkup when they are gonna be a perm staff in GoodRich. Hehe, yeah i'm gonna be a perm staff soon! Tho they didn't rise my pay due to my education but they really have lots of good benefits! I've planned to upgrade myself when i have confirmed to become a perm staff there so that my pay will rise more faster and much more.

Lord, pls take care and bless everyone around me, especially my mum..

Nothing But Nothing...

2008-05-29T21:41:00.006+08:00

Don't really know what to blog about today.. Been feeling kinda down and can't really focus on my work this few days.. What's wrong with me? Somethings been really troubling me.. Sigh.

Lord, i know that you've always been there for me and i'm really really grateful that you've always lead me out of all my misery. I know that no matter how hard my life may seem to be and no matter how much stress, troubles and depressed i feel, i know one thing and it's that you'll always be there for me. Just wanna thank you for every single little things that you've done for me in my life.

I love you Father..

~What A Day~

2008-05-28T18:10:00.003+08:00

Went to work as usual today and i only need to work half day today coz my HR told me to goto Clementi for a full checkup.. (Go all the way there just for checkup =.=") Went there with 2 more of my friends, first we have our lunch (KFC) at tempines than we took a cab down to that client, reach the place and we start to take our medical test, hearing test, eye test, etc. Than after that we were sent to another client next door to see the doc to take out blood pressure, take some kind of jap and take our blood sample...

Guess what? The doc isn't in and there is another doc stand in today and it's an old lady ok!? I think old enuff to be my grandma lor!! ><" Lucky i wasn't the first to go in coz my friend that when in first got the worse treatment! The old lady doc tried 2 times to draw blood from my friend and only the 2nd time she did hit the right spot, suppose to only get poke 2 times and my friend got poked 3 times, poor him...

When i saw him came out of the room and saw him get poked extra one time when he is so thin.. I got really really nervous... Why? Coz i'm FAT and i was thinking that old lady doc SURE can't see my vein one lor~~~ So my name was called and i went into the room and saw the place is like a mess.. So i was asked to take a sit and she begin to take my blood pressure, than it's taking of my blood sample time.. I can feel my heart beating more and more fast and my hands starts to shake alittle... Lolx.. I pray so hard that she will spot my vein ok~ Lucky she did!! xD So total i only get poked 2 times and when my friend know about it he was like cursing and swearing. Haha..

After waiting for my another friend to come out, it's time for us to part, so we head out own way to go home.

-My Aims-

2008-05-22T19:15:00.005+08:00

Today at work was very enjoying, tho today really sweat alot from carrying lots and lots of heavy things up and down and in and out of the container freezers but it's always fun to goto work and get to see my friends at work, they are really a fun bunch to be with. =)

Just tot of listing down my golds that i'm gonna aim for,

Get bike license than car license
Further my studies asap which is related to what i'm working
Become ( LAME ) "Licensed Aircraft Maintenance Engineer"
Save lots of money
Get a house of my own (If possible)

Guess that's some of the most impt golds that i wanna achieve.

Great day~

2008-05-21T21:31:00.005+08:00

Today have been a great day for me~ Why? Coz i really had fun at work and i've been send to HR and they offer me to be their perm staff there! xD So happy lor, tho the pay is still the same but there are lots of good benefits! ^^

(Continue of 20 May 08)

One day my dad and mum have a fight and my dad decided to pack some of his things and sort of move out and my bro follow him along and get afew clothes and out they went, my mum were so angry that she also decided to throw away most of my dad's stuff! >=D Out goes his Hi-Fi and lots and lots of junk!! Haha! You go mum! xD Finally PEACEFULNESS is back! (They were back home the next day.)

Continue of 19 May 08

2008-05-20T09:02:00.003+08:00

(Continue of 19 May 08)

One time, when my bro and i were at home and we haven't even eaten anything in the morning and afternoon, my dad bring that girl home with her twin sis and buy food for them and didn't even buy food for us!! My dad always tries to get my bro to follow him everywhere, even use money to bribe my bro, bring him go bowling, movies, etc, but when my dad is broke. He only stays at home of somehow he can get ppl to treat him to eat.. My bro used to stick with my mum alot and i really mean alot, So now my bro don't follow my mum anymore, he said to me "follow papa is more fun" and i told him "yeah i know it's more fun but have you ever think that when dad is broke who is the one that is ALWAYS there to take care of you? It's mum ok! Mum is the one that pays for your sch fees and everything you eat to get you this big size and most of the things you want also mum use her money to get it for you!!! Why can't you just think of the long term and not just the short moment of fun with dad!?" He still don't listen to me even until now..

There came this day.. One night i was playing my comp in my room and heard my bro and dad came home at like 11+pm close to 12am at night and my bro still got sch the next day lor. My mum came out and scold my dad for bringing my bro out till so late and she ask my bro go to and sleep but my bro just wouldn't listen, so my mum keep yelling for him to get to bed and guess what my dad did, he go and turn on his Hi-Fi very loud just to cover my mum's yelling, my mum got very mad and came out of her room and go towards the Hi-Fi and tries to turn it off but my dad push her away, so when i hear like there is fighting outside my room, i went out and saw my dad using his arms and keep pushing my mum away, so in the moment of anger i went towards him and use both my hands and push him really really hard until he flew over a smell coffee table and landed on the sofa. Haha.. (Inside of my i feel so angry and yet so shiok that i get to push him aways until he fly.)

Anyways, then he stood up and came face to face with me like he wanted to fight, (i know i can't hit him unless he hit me, so i was waiting for him to make the first move but he didn't) he turn away and i ask my mum to go back to sleep and so she did and i too went back into my room, so my dad were making lots of grumbling and he say he is gonna call the police, so he did and 2 policeman came up and one talk to my dad and one talk to me and my mum until my mum cried, i explain to him what happen and that when i came out of my room i saw my dad pushing my mum so i went forward and push him away from her, guess what the police said? He was writing down whatever we said and while he is writing he said "So you prevented the fight." Lolx. Than after the police left, and my mum were back to sleep and i in my room, my dad acts like he is so proud of himself and say he is RC member and that ppl can't touch him and police is at his side, BS to that! (Look at yourself, you're just a boot licker in RC! Helping RC so much and yet they don't pay you, you don't even take care of your family! What a wonderful dad you are! I'm gonna protect my mum no matter what.)

Another time he call police on me was when he bring my bro back home late and it was like 1-2am in the morning ok.. I asked my bro to come into my room and i scolded him saying why did he always have to follow my dad and not spend time with my mum, (my mum really gotten very sad and she even cried, coz she really pampers my bro alot i know that coz she pampers him more than me) and even follow my dad until so late in the night and he still have sch the next day.. So while i was talking to my bro in my room, my dad came and told my bro "go sleep early it's very late" (WTF right!? If you know it's late than why the hell did you bring him out till so late than come home!?" So i yelled at my dad saying "Now you know it's late? Late than you still bring him out until 1-2am than come back?" Than we started to quarrel again and this time he came up face to face with me again and he i use my chest to push against his to get his f-ing face out of mine, and he return me with chest pushing too.. =.=" (Boh liao, if you wanna fight, just do it, i know he is waiting for me to make the first move to hit him first but i'm not that stupid so to let him call the police and i'll be in the wrong.) While he were chest pushing (=.=") my bro tried to get my dad to cool down and back off, so he turn away and out to the living room and say "He'll make sure i get police case" and so he called the police again.. The same 2 policeman came and talk to us 1 on 1 and i told them what happen and so one of the policeman gave me a family center number to call, and they left.

My dad don't even wanna pay for the utility bills for like 6-8months and we have to live in total darkness without fan, lights, warm shower and refrigerator for about a month or two.. Everynight is a living hell.. So now we're using those topup thingy for our utility. Have to topup to use electric de. He even hai me owe singtel about 1k plus dollars coz i was too stupid to put the living room's phone under my name saying that he will pay for the bills.. Even up till now i'm still trying to pay off the debts.. Sigh.. What a wonderful dad i have right? Sometimes i really ask myself.. Why do i have a family like this... Sometimes i really envy other families.. Sigh..

(To be continued)

Very First Day..

2008-05-19T21:02:00.003+08:00

New to this little world here, guess this will be one of the place that I'll let my feelings and tots run wild. Don't really know where to start but.. Here goes nothing...

Been working on sat, sun and even public holidays, coz i come from a poor family, need to really earn as much money as i can to pay bills and stuff and there really alot of probs in my family, ever since my bro bring his first gf together with another one of his friend who is a girl too.. That's where the prob started...

One day, i was at home playing my comp and heard my bro and his gf running into the house and closing all the doors, so i went out and ask him what happen, he said that the girl that he bring home with his gf that day is stalking them and following wherever they go, so, they tried to get lose of her by running away from her and rush him to close all the doors and act like they are not at home, so when they did manage to close all the doors, that girl arrive outside my house and keep on banging my door and pressing the doorbell and even shouting saying "I know you all are inside, open the door!" and i was like omg, how come got this kind of ppl de? when ppl don't wanna let you come to their house, you should know the meaning right...? Still so thick skinned and yelling and shouting.

I told my bro and his gf to hide in the room while i go and ans the door and i told her girl that my bro isn't home, so she cry and ran away but you know what? After like 10mins my dad called and ask my bro to open the door for that girl!? That girl even took number from my dad when she came to my house sometime ago!! ><" Than we didn't care about it and didn't open up for her until my dad came home from work and there came along that girl too!! OMG... After afew weeks later my dad took that girl to be his goddaughter, WTH right!? And the worst thing is that girl keep coming to my house from then on and keep sticking to my dad, after 1-2months passed that she still coming to my house and even stayed over in my house! Of coz my mum didn't welcome her but she is too thick skinned and just didn't give a !@#$ what my mum said to her, she even share the same mattress with my dad lor... Can you imagine!? What will ppl think if they sees it!? I even scold and yell at my dad and ask him not to sleep together with that girl but he just don't care, even the girl! From then on i'm in no good terms with my dad.. Sigh.. Guess I'll stop here and continue someother day.. Making me gloomy already...